Showing posts with label Setbacks. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Setbacks. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Pre-Thanksgiving Rant

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. The day that I am supposed to acknowledge all that I am thankful for.

But today? Today is my day to acknowledge the crappy last few days that I have had.

Last week, I had car troubles. Took the car to get fixed, spent a little over $200 to "fix" it, then got stuck in Seattle and had the car towed 45 miles or so.

Monday was the worst though. It snowed heavily on Monday and I live on top of a series of hills. I got stuck. Royally stuck. About a foot from hitting the car parked by the sidewalk behind me. Finally got home 4 1/2 hours later.

Still working on the details of the posts for the above mentioned "mishaps". Suffice it to say, this week has sucked. Hopefully, I will have a fun happy post for you tomorrow!

Anyone else want to vent about their shitty lives at the moment? Now is the time to do so.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Weigh-In Wednesday Numero Uno (Again)

I have decided that there isn't anything wrong with constantly "starting over" on my diet. Actually, starting over on anything repeatedly is fine by me. I mean, it's better than giving up, right?

Ok, so my convictions aren't very committed. But here I am again. Starting over.

Last Wednesday I wrote a post, but didn't publish it because I re-read it and was super ashamed. As a matter of fact, I had titled that post as "Ashamed". Here it is in all its sadness:

"Ashamed"
Post Dated 9/29/10

I weighed myself for the first time this morning. I was scared. I knew it would be bad.

212.2 pounds.

Looking back on my weight-loss tracker, I have gained 16.6 pounds since June. I have gained nearly 17 pounds in the last three months.

I am shamed.

I know I have "started over" many times through the course of this blog, and I am horrified that I am doing it again. But I have to if I want to reach any of my goals by this time next year. I am already one year behind on reaching the goals I originally declared.

I have so many other wants, dreams, and hopes, but my weight is the one that I can control and accomplish as fast or as slow as I choose. I don't want to be a human yo-yo anymore. I have 48 weeks until I turn 30. I need to lose 78 pounds to reach my goal of 135 pounds. All I would need to do is stick to a reasonable 1-2 pound weight-loss for the next 48 weeks and I will reach my goal.

Can I do it? Can I be reasonable? We'll find out - slow and steady.

I know, you want to stop reading my blog because I am such a failure! But wait! Read on...

I'm afraid that I am a Paper Tiger, a term I learned from reading The Ex Hot Girl's blog (who in turn got it from this guy). I failed in my goals and when the going got tough I didn't post. This week ended up being a good week and so now I post. Paper Tiger, that's me.

I will again try to be more consistent on Wednesdays, I can do once a week, right? And if my ups and downs helps someone else go through their ups and downs, then all the better!

This last week I didn't eat out as much and I went to the gym for the first time. It appears to have paid off because I weighed in at 206.8 this morning, for a total loss of 5.4 pounds this week.

Now, let me disclose that I did something on Monday to help me get into the mode of eating right: I fasted. Not for the entire day, but for a good 24 hours. I finished dinner on Sunday at around 7:30 pm and ate my chicken and hearty salad around the same time on Monday, after the gym.

Why did I fast?

I appreciate food so much more after a good fast. Not in the "give me a burger STAT" kind of way, but in a "banana, all I need is a banana" kind of way. I am hoping that my brain will reset itself and I can now proceed with my weight-loss in the normal way of thinking. I hope.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Tatted Up

Blogging cousins, Pam and Marquita, are followers of YA Highway who posted a question that I loved so much that I have to blog about it.

The question of the week was, "What tattoo would you get to pay homage to a favorite book or celebrate the success of your own?"

I don't know that there is a book out there that I love so much that I would get it tattooed on me. But I do have one completed book. A book I am so attached to that I would have no problems getting a two inch tattoo of - drum roll please! - a MIXTAPE! Oh, and pink, of course. I couldn't find a picture of anything I really liked, so I sketched this:


Ok, I was joking about the "Author!" thing, but you get the idea. Not quite sure where I would put it, either on the back of my neck, right below my hairline and off to the side a bit, or on my back, right below the bra line also to the side. But that second option would only be possible if I wasn't eating this:

The anti-diet.

There is nothing sexy about a bra line tattoo if my bra is cutting into my back fat. Maybe next summer, when I have reached, and am comfortably maintaining, my goal weight!

But don't worry, because thanks to my personal handyman, I now have this at home to work off the anti-diet "snack" I had:

I am still planning on waking up at 4:45 on Tuesdays and Thursdays so that I can run on the track because I really like the fresh air. But I figure I up my running regimen and get on the treadmill to jog/walk a mile every morning. I will let you know how that goes. You know me and my "goals"!

Anyway, what about you? Not all of you write, so what kind of tattoo would you get to commemorate accomplishing your biggest goal?

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Weigh-In Wednesday #20

Well, that was a short visit to Onederland - I gained two pounds.

I was so disappointed with myself that I decided not to post anything today. Then I started thinking about how the first step would be to stop the blogging on weight loss and the second step would just to stop the weight loss plan altogether. I don't want to fall into that trap.

So here I am. Tail between my legs, admitting to you that I have failed this week.

It seems to me that it is the going out to eat that gets me into trouble (I own a permanent seat at Outback Steakhouse). The weeks that I don't go out to eat are the weeks that I lose weight. Maybe it is because I eat simpler foods at home. Or maybe it is because when I go out to eat I decide to eat everything on my plate. Plus the appetizer.

Weight: 201.6
Total Weight-loss: 28.4

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Minor Setback

Ok, not doing so well on the goals right now. Had a minor setback on Tuesday. I took a day off to take care of some personal stuff (doctor appointments, flu shots, car stuff). Taking a day off from work is dangerous because I end up going shopping.

After I had my daughter in 2005, I was a stay-at-home mommy for 2 1/2 years. Online shopping was my thing since it was a hassle to get my baby in and out of the car seat all day. But I missed shopping in the stores. I like to try clothes on.

I started shopping during the day, while most people were at work, and it was great. The stores were empty, I didn't have to deal with any lines, the stores were neat and orderly - a shopaholics dream. But this did awful things to my wallet, which I am paying for to this day.

I am still too ashamed of my debt amount to put it out there. Let's just say I have started making minimum payments on my multitude of credit cards, totaling around $530 a month. I still have not made a dent and my credit cards are pretty much maxed out. On Tuesday, I ended up using a total of $346.65 of the available credit I had on a couple of store cards. Dammit!

My problem is that I have this ability of justifying all my purchases, but whether I have the money to buy it never factors in. For example: I found a pair of Cole Haan wedges, originally $229.00, marked down to $89.90, marked down again to $59.90! How could I not buy them?!

Did I have the money for them? No. Did it stop me? Nope. My credit card was practically begging to be used in my purse.

I did experience a bit of buyer's remorse after I saw my bill, but not enough to turn around and return anything.

So, my climbing out of debt goal is is set back $346.65.

My weight loss goal is neutral - neither losing or gaining weight this week.

The book publishing goal is stagnant as well. I have given up on my first book and have two ideas currently brewing in my head.